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[serafina20]

And I feel really ugly right now. I'm officially too thin to give blood. Not that I want to give blood, because there's a whole host of problems every time I've ever tried that resulted with me not being able to, but within two weeks, I went from seven pound over the required weight to somewhere beneath it. I dont' know exactly, since my scale is a little hard to read, but still.

All I want is to be 125. That's it. And to be happy and to not feel guilty all the time that I am thin. I want to be hungry and I want to be able to eat more and I want to have clothes that fit.

And I don't want to have to be afraid anymore that I'm going to disappear one day. I feel like I get closer and closer to wasting away every year.

I hate life.

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[elli.livejournal.com]

*sniff*

Don't sday that... you can have some of my kilos.

[serafina20.livejournal.com]

I'd happily take them if I could.

[elli.livejournal.com]

*hugz*

[firesignwriter.livejournal.com]

Well, those of us who work to keep our weight down usually hear, "It's less about how much you eat than what you eat." I'd imagine the same is true in reverse. Maybe you could eat more calories...? Have a morning HoHo instead of a whole wheat bagel or whatever?

Please ignore that. I'm sure that's the worst advice anyone ever gave with regard to diet. ;)

On a serious note, if you're really worried about it, have you spoken to a doctor?

[serafina20.livejournal.com]

Please ignore that. I'm sure that's the worst advice anyone ever gave with regard to diet. ;)

But I do try to follow it. The problem is, when I get this nervous and stressed, *no* food sounds good and junk is just too heavy.

I have talked to my doctor, and have never gotten any good advice on what to do. She did perscribe Paxil CR to me to help with anxiety and most people gain weight on it, but I got all anxious because I read all this bad stuff about it and only took a couple pills. I should probably call her.

Some unsolicited advice from the mouse

[kendermouse.livejournal.com]

She did perscribe Paxil CR to me to help with anxiety and most people gain weight on it, but I got all anxious because I read all this bad stuff about it and only took a couple pills.

As someone who has been on Paxil CR for several years now i can support taking it. Remember, all the "bad stuff" they write about the pills are generally "Worst Case Scenarios" not the "normal reactions". I have a VERY hard time on meds and if there is an ODD reaction to be had from a pill... generally *i* will manage it. I have had nothing but LUCK with Paxil. It has helped with both my anxiety and depression problems and i've not had ANY of the side effects they warn you about.

BUT, if you're worried about it, talk to your doctor.

Another note... if nothing SOUNDS good when you are anxious/depressed and "junk food" sounds too heavy, talk to your doc about the possibility of nutrient supplements (like Ensure). I know they use those with kids who are underweight, maybe they'd help you as well while not giving you the "nothing sounds good and everything is too HEAVY to eat" feeling. Just a thought.

I've never had an issue with GAINING weight, just losing it... and i'd be MORE than happy to share with you if i could. But since i can't, just remember, you have friends rooting for you to feel better/good about yourself/and healthy. Sometimes, just knowing that helps.

peace,
the kendermouse

[lastscorpion.livejournal.com]

Can you drink milk? Or if not, are there any of those weird soy- or rice-based calcium-rich beverages that you like? They're good for you; you can drink them when you're too stressed to feel hungry, and the calcium, protein and carbohydrates can make you feel less anxious, too.