It's not your right to have my fic
Sep. 11th, 2004 10:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafina20*sigh* I realize that no one who is actually on my friend's list or reading my Live Journal would ask me this beacause I'm not keeping it a secret that I JUST STARTED ME CAREER and it's REALLY HARD, but, in hopes of this actually reaching those who don't get it:
All questions regarding the next COTW, unless I'm actively talking about it at the moment, will be completely ignored. It is well within my rights to never touch that thing again, and the more I'm pestered about it, especially while I'm working with the COWORKER FROM HELL (hey? Do you know why I'm not allowed to teach GATE students? Well, I do, because she fucking tells me EVERY TIME WE TALK EVEN WHEN I TELL HER SHE'S ALREADY TOLD ME and EVEN IF SHE ALREADY TOLD ME ONCE IN THE COVERSATION ALREADY).
What pisses me off the most is I've made it quite clear to everyone who gave me feedback on the last fic (including this person) that I only had until August 23 to really work on it. After that, I was teaching, and I realize that a lot of people don't understand what that entails, but that doesn't matter. I *said* I probably woldn't have time to write. I've *said* it *several* times and in many different ways. And I *still* got a letter asking how it was going.
I get if someone's tryign to be nice, but it's annoyign for people to constantly pester you about the next part of the fic. Talkign about past fics is fine. Talkign about possible PLOT THREADS or cahracterizations is fine. A two line e-mail asking how it's going and when it's getting done? NOT FINE.
I haven't had recess or lunch to talk to the people I actually like at my school for the past two days. And I might be losing half my class because I'm not qualified to teach gifted students AND they stuck all the RSP (resource/behavior problems) kids in my class. Because Anne is a fucking FUCKHEAD.
The funniest thing is? She and another teacher spent 3 days badmouthign another teacher. I jokingly said then that I like taht other teacher the best (to myp arents, not them). Right now, I do. Because she assumes I'm a professional. Her advice to me was, "It's your class." It took her 1 minute to give it to me. Other teachers (esepcially the two trash talkers) monpolize my time, and one of them can't even finish her sentences. And M. (can't spell her name) is just... nicer. Not condecending or stupid. And then Erika was totally nice to me when I ran in nearly in tears because i forgot how to do averages (which it turns out I wasn't tryign to do; I was tryign to do percents). She just sat down adn started going over it, no advice or sighing or headshaking.
Anyway, yeah. Venting. The point is, please, please, please, unless you want to make my world and talk to me *about* COTW (likes, dislikes, hopes, wishes in regards to what happens next), dont' ask me when the next part will come out. It will just make me cry.
That being said, I hope to have the next part of LLAR out this evening. ;P
All questions regarding the next COTW, unless I'm actively talking about it at the moment, will be completely ignored. It is well within my rights to never touch that thing again, and the more I'm pestered about it, especially while I'm working with the COWORKER FROM HELL (hey? Do you know why I'm not allowed to teach GATE students? Well, I do, because she fucking tells me EVERY TIME WE TALK EVEN WHEN I TELL HER SHE'S ALREADY TOLD ME and EVEN IF SHE ALREADY TOLD ME ONCE IN THE COVERSATION ALREADY).
What pisses me off the most is I've made it quite clear to everyone who gave me feedback on the last fic (including this person) that I only had until August 23 to really work on it. After that, I was teaching, and I realize that a lot of people don't understand what that entails, but that doesn't matter. I *said* I probably woldn't have time to write. I've *said* it *several* times and in many different ways. And I *still* got a letter asking how it was going.
I get if someone's tryign to be nice, but it's annoyign for people to constantly pester you about the next part of the fic. Talkign about past fics is fine. Talkign about possible PLOT THREADS or cahracterizations is fine. A two line e-mail asking how it's going and when it's getting done? NOT FINE.
I haven't had recess or lunch to talk to the people I actually like at my school for the past two days. And I might be losing half my class because I'm not qualified to teach gifted students AND they stuck all the RSP (resource/behavior problems) kids in my class. Because Anne is a fucking FUCKHEAD.
The funniest thing is? She and another teacher spent 3 days badmouthign another teacher. I jokingly said then that I like taht other teacher the best (to myp arents, not them). Right now, I do. Because she assumes I'm a professional. Her advice to me was, "It's your class." It took her 1 minute to give it to me. Other teachers (esepcially the two trash talkers) monpolize my time, and one of them can't even finish her sentences. And M. (can't spell her name) is just... nicer. Not condecending or stupid. And then Erika was totally nice to me when I ran in nearly in tears because i forgot how to do averages (which it turns out I wasn't tryign to do; I was tryign to do percents). She just sat down adn started going over it, no advice or sighing or headshaking.
Anyway, yeah. Venting. The point is, please, please, please, unless you want to make my world and talk to me *about* COTW (likes, dislikes, hopes, wishes in regards to what happens next), dont' ask me when the next part will come out. It will just make me cry.
That being said, I hope to have the next part of LLAR out this evening. ;P
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Date: 2004-09-11 11:31 am (UTC)Second -- huh? Why do you need more qualifications to teach G&T students, who are easier, than to teach RSP students, who are by definition harder to teach?
Third, more {{{hugs}}}.
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Date: 2004-09-11 12:08 pm (UTC)*nods*
I don't get that, either. It sounds like the typical bureaucracy bullcrap that happens in all careers and which make everything fifty times more difficult for everyone involved.
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Date: 2004-09-11 02:27 pm (UTC)Oh, it is. I mean, there's a part of me that sees where they're coming from. When you teach GATE, there's a different curriculum that you follow. Plus, if you'er not used to gifted kids, it can be a shock, I guess. But, I was a gifted kid. I know how the classes are run and, more than that, I know how they think. My mom was cracking up (in an angry way, because my co-worker pissed my entire family off the day the met) because Anne was going off about what a mystery gifted kids are, and they're just so this and that, and my mom was like, "I lived with three of them. I know."
Incidentally, that did not actually stop Anne from spending the next ten mintues describing GATE kids.
But, yeah. I don't see what the big deal is, but current educational trends are such that beginning teachers inevitably get stuck in the toughest situations. It's so stupid.
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Date: 2004-09-11 02:23 pm (UTC)I have no idea. It's not the same in Long Beach, where a friend of mine who is a first year teacher is doing fifth grade. The only part of it I understand is that the GATE kids have a slightly modified curriculum that's given by the state/district, so you need additional training to know it. RSP students are generally pulled out of class by a specialist, so you're either reteaching them somethign they've reviewed with that specialist while introducing it to the rest of the class, or only dealing with them for a few hours a day.
The only reason they stuck all the RSP kids in my class is they assuemd I'd team with them, which means we'd specialize in one subject and trade kids all day. I dont want to do that, so i've thrown a cog in the works.
Thanks for the hugs. I really do need them right now. *sigh*
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Date: 2004-09-11 11:47 am (UTC)Rai
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Date: 2004-09-11 02:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-11 03:16 pm (UTC)Rai
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Date: 2004-09-11 11:59 am (UTC)huh? huh?
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Date: 2004-09-11 02:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-11 03:17 pm (UTC)Rai
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Date: 2004-09-11 12:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-11 02:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-11 05:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-11 09:25 pm (UTC)*squishes*
Teh bad of being a BNF author...