*sigh*

[serafina20]

I must admit, i'm a denalist, but only in that I will never believed a. Clark and Lex don't love each other and b. won't ever read fic in which they are bitter enemies, broken up with no hope of repair, deathfic, rape/torture out of anger fic, or anything like that. Fanfic is where I'm safe, where my boys are safe, where everything is happy except for the angst.

That's why I don't know if I'll ever be free of COTW (not that I want to be)

However I was willing to watch the show, knowing it would break my heart because I thought it would hurt so good when it finally came. Becuase I had visions of this lovely Rift brought about by human and alien error, by mistakes and missteps on both sides, by loving too much and too deep but not well and being friends until they just couldn't anymore. And that would be near the end of the series.

I know the story of the enemies. I know what happens. I wanted to see the glory days when everything just reached perfection before all falling apart. But all they could give me was something that started falling apart before it began.

I'm still enjoying the show. I will still watch the show. I still have hope, because I am an eternal optimist. Hey; i watched two and a half years of as how I grew to loathe. I just hope something is retained in Smallville that I love. I still love my show right now, but I'm sad because I'm afraid I won't come S4.

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[rose7.livejournal.com]

I know the story of the enemies. I know what happens. I wanted to see the glory days when everything just reached perfection before all falling apart. But all they could give me was something that started falling apart before it began.

That is it! I never got the feeling of a deep friendship between those two on the show except for some singular moments, which were contradicted at the latest in the next show where - mostly Clark - behaved like they were barely acquaintances and Lex was just a convenient source of all things material. If there is no deep friendship, there is no deep rift, which makes the whole show so shallow. Thank god for fanfic, where this fascinating idea has a chance to blossom.

And I am one of those living in Denial, too. I love fic that ignores or, even better, heals the rift, but I can't watch the show anymore because canon Clark (and his hypocrites of parents) make it too hard for me to uphold the illusion.