serafina20 | Le Sigh...

I thought i was on the right track with COTW 33. Really. I mean, sure, I hit the end of the big sex scene and realized I didn't want to go on, but I just thought it was because I've gotten used to writting "short" things as opposed to long, novel length stuff. And that's what 33 was looking to be (novel length).

And then sabershadowkat pointed out that, story wise, I really needed something light and happy. And smutty. :) And, since she was right, I set about revising it.

The problem? There are now three sex scenes with Clark and Lex, plus one between other characters. I've never done that before, and I just got through telling someone that I probably never would. Not that there's anything wrong with a bunch of smut, but I can't really write sex scenes. I just sort of use the same words over and over again, which everyone is going to realize once they read this fic.

But, I'm having fun writing it. :)

School wasn't all bad today. I passed out at my birthday party on Saturday due to a panic attack. I tried to avoid going out yesterday, but my parents dragged me out of the house and took me to Disneyland for lunch. And I survived. But today... it was really crowded, and I was terrified I was goign to have anothe panic attack and pass out again. Which I knew I woudldn't, but fear isn't logical.

Then I wrote a lot of smut. And ate. It made me feel a little better.