Meh

[serafina20]

Two panic attacks in three days. One migraine that lasted all day. An upset stomach. An impending sense of doom.

Oh, yeah. The next few months are going to be *fun*. Top my sudden terror of trying to find a job, work, finish school, and move out with my mom's insistence that if I get a job locally, I should continue living at home so I can pay off student loans for a few months ....

I am *never* going to a) get out of this house, b) get laid, and c) grow up.

Let's hope I don't have another panic attack tonight. In last night's moments between waking and sleeping, I was Dominic, trying not to throw up, while one of my students berated me for being such an idiot. And at one point, my cat joined in on the chastisement. *sigh* It would have been amusing if I hadn't thought I was dying.

I'm getting a Clark/Lex cake in two weeks, right? To celebrate being certified?

Comments

[garryowen.livejournal.com]

You poor thing. So sorry about the migraine...
I'm sure the cat was just being a cat. I wouldn't take it personally. *g*
I don't know if I can make a Clark/Lex cake. What would that LOOK like?? I'm kinda scared to know...

[soft-princess.livejournal.com]

*pets you*

I promise you Clex goodness in two weeks. Be it a drabble or an icon or something. I'd bake you a cake, but... I don't think it'd survive the mailing process. *giggle*

Until then, you can use my icon if you want.

It's all pretty. *pets it*

*pets you some more* yes, yes, I wanna hear you purr. *wink* Also hoping I can make you feel a little better.

[mlleelizabeth.livejournal.com]

Yikes! Panic attacks suck! I wish I could magic them away from you.

You definitely deserve a Clex Cake! And you will do d) all of the above. If you are motivated enough to have done all you've done to get your certification, you'll get there.

[ellenore.livejournal.com]

awww...*hugs* I'm sorry. Panic attacks really suck.

When's the last time you did something fun? Maybe chilling out a bit would help.

[serafina20.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I can make a Clark/Lex cake. What would that LOOK like?? I'm kinda scared to know...

Don't worry about making one. I was just kidding, mostly. A few weeks ago, I got the idea that for my birthday, I wanted to get a cake with a slashy picture of Clark and Lex on it in frosting. Because their love is so sweet, of course. ;) Of course, I don't really want to pay the money for the cost (I don't know how much it would be, but I imagine not cheap), so I'm not goign to get it. Maybe when I actually get a job. But, until then, regular cakes will do just nicely. ;)

I'm feeling so much better today. The difference is dramatic. :)

*Purrrrrrrrr*

[serafina20.livejournal.com]

*purrrrrrrrrrrr* Thanks for the use of the icon, and thanks for the promise of future Clexiness. *purr* I'm feeling a lot better, thanks!

[serafina20.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the encouragement! I really need it right now. I know I'm going to do fine, but it feels like everythign is closing in on me, so I panicked. I needed to hear encouraging words. Thanks so much.

[serafina20.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs *hugs back tightly*.

I actually did fun things over the weekend, although I was a little run down and not feeling hot, so it was hard to get totally into it. The panic I think came from the realization that this was it and in two weeks I was done with student teaching. Intellectually, I knew it all was coming up, but I just didn't realize how soon. I'm donig a lot better today now that I'm feeling better and more organized.

Thanks again!